I was sitting here reflecting on the past year and how incredibly fast it has gone by. I look back at the past few years and am in awe at how much can actually happen and change! If someone had of said to me 5 years ago this is where you will be 5 years into the future, I would have looked at them as if they were from Mars!! I would never have imagined that the road of life, even with all the twists and turns, would have led me to this place. I now understand the pain, the fear, the uncertainty, the sometimes lack of self belief, the tears and the frustration were all part of my spiritual awakening.
My spiritual awakening has not been an easy process and I would think nobodies ever is. I came to a point where I had to move forward into the unknown or step back into a comfort zone and I knew deep within that I had been living in a comfort zone for far too long! This was my TOWER moment, that moment before a new higher frequency, that moment where you start vibrationally aligning yourself with the people who are a match to where you are going in life. I have always strived to remain positive, even in the hardest of situations and I believe that is a strength but what I started to notice was society is obsessed with speaking positively and afraid to speak truthfully and that for me was a defining moment. There is nothing that shows more strength of character and more authenticity than speaking your truth.
The Spiritual Awakening:
- The Darkness- As is with life the best catalyst for change is pain. Sometimes the pain, the grief and that darkness makes it seem as though you will never recover. You question life and everything that has happened, with feelings of despair, confusion, frustration and uncertainty.
- The Hermit/Isolation Stage- You have this desire to spend time alone, a need to avoid small talk and you have this drive to find a deeper meaning. You question everything and you read anything and everything to find answers, to learn. You meditate, going deep within yourself because in that quiet, that stillness, that peace you start the healing process, but you also let yourself feel the difficult feelings and you slowly deal with them because you know if you avoid them or push them away you will never heal, distraction is a temporary fix. You take yourself into nature daily and you become present in that moment because nature will always ground you. It will quiet the mind and allow you to listen to your soul.
- The Rebirth- You have now become aware of your thoughts and feelings and how they affect everything in your life. You understand your ego and what part it has played in your life up to this point. You become aware of your limiting beliefs and the conditioning around you. Your consciousness is expanding. Your spirit is overtaking your ego. You listen. You listen to yourself, your thoughts and your feelings and what they are trying to tell you. You relish the quiet and in doing so you hear what needs to be heard, you see what needs to be seen and you feel what needs to be felt. You gain clarity, you detach and realise you don’t actually need anything or anyone, desiring and wanting are very different from needing.
- The Call To Spread Healing- You have this deep, unavoidable pull to share your story because you know that your story could help others, even if it’s only one person. You understand that by speaking your truth you can inspire others.
There are three things that will come to you, like an unforeseen revelation, in the course of your journey. The magnitude of the final straw, the unexpected person who teaches you how to grow and love yourself and your astonishing capacity to be grateful and love in this life, despite whatever pain you have suffered. I have for the past few years been vocal about not settling. Not settling in life or in relationships. It’s no longer enough for me, I want extraordinary and I deserve extraordinary. I have been given the best gift and that was a new perspective, because previously one of my biggest fears was being alone, but now my biggest fear is settling.
I have come to learn that it doesn’t matter what others think about the way you live your life, what matters is what you think about yourself. I have said it before that societal pressures have people living a life that they don’t necessarily want to live, whether that be a job or a relationship. This pressure, the fear and ego keeps people in places they should have left long ago. No matter where you are in life, you should always be able to say “I chose this life” and even if others don’t understand it, you should love it. People will have different notions of what a perfect life should be, many think there’s a mould for a perfect life but an awakened being knows all moulds lead to a soul suffocating life! We have no obligation to live a life based on the soul suffocating opinions of the masses, live life on your own terms so you can be your most authentic self.
Much of the “fluff” we see on social media I realise is a means to either make people feel better about themselves or aimed at trying to help others, which is thought provoking but lacks the depth that my soul craves. I want more truth, more bravery, more breaking taboo, more vulnerability and more authenticity. Don’t get me wrong positivity as a means to inspire is a wonderful thing but often it’s shallow and lacks real meaning. A meaningful life for me is not being rich, being popular, being highly educated or being perfect. It’s about being real, being humble, being unapologetically yourself and being able to share yourself to touch the lives of others and in-turn your life becomes rich in a spiritual and holistic way.
I was recently speaking with a lovely lady who is going through a difficult separation and we spoke a little of my journey, what I have learnt and my reignited passion for writing and she said ” you are a fascinating woman and truly inspirational” and in that moment I felt incredibly humbled and I knew this is exactly where I am meant to be. It’s still a journey, it will always be a journey and I will still feel some doubt and fear as I am human but overall I trust that things are unfolding this way for a reason. I want an organic and meaningful life and it’s been a process, but this type of transition does not take place unless you are ready for big changes. Changes for the better. Nobody can tell you where your life is headed but I know if I remain on this path of alignment, my life will be beautifully fulfilling.
As human beings we all have issues and we all hurt at times. The trick is not to focus on the hurt and pain as you will continue to suffer but rather focus on the lessons so you will continue to grow. Remembering that the feelings we feel are because we all have a story and no matter how much work we do on ourselves, we all snap back sometimes. It’s remembering to be easy on yourself in these moments because growth is a dance not a light switch you can flick on and off.
I dare to be imperfect because perfection is a fallacy and you don’t need to be perfect to inspire others, let people get inspired with how you deal with your imperfections. I dare to be vulnerable because vulnerability is strength. I dare to speak from the heart and own my story, all of it, the good, the not so good, the achievements and the mistakes because that is authenticity. I dare to speak my truth in all its rawness, its beauty and at times its ugliness because I expect that from others. I dare to be fulfilled and happy on my own because that makes me a whole person and when someone enters my life it will be because they see this independent, free spirited and happy woman. I dare to have a heart filled with love because I am blessed and grateful.
Never shrink yourself because another person cannot see your worth. Do the universe, yourself and everyone in your life a favour and never hide your magic. Let it shine out of you and envelop everyone around you.