She Woke Up Different

I have written a lot about my journey of self-discovery, transformation or awakening, whatever term is used it’s really all the same thing. My core and soul are still the same, I still love how I love, I still care how I care and I still give how I give. So what is different? The way I think is different. I no longer fear stepping way outside my comfort zone. I no longer fear going after what I want because as I wrote in another blog better an oops than a what if. If you don’t try, you don’t know and a failure is better than regret.

In my post Synchronicity, Serendipity and Devine Intervention I spoke about the Law of Attraction and my belief that everything happens for a reason. There are no coincidences in life, it may seem like there are but really they are all signs and you just need to be present and awake enough to notice them. We may not always understand these signs but eventually everything makes sense. You will attract those into your life that have the same energy and are on the same frequency as you. You will also lose some people along the way for this very same reason. You need to be unafraid of what others think and willing to walk alone, because many who started with you won’t finish with you.

I am fortunate in my life that I am well supported, however, I am a firm believer of keeping your circle small. You will have a core circle that love and support you, even if at times they don’t fully understand and then a wider circle but that wider circle may not agree with your beliefs or the direction you are taking or even really care and you know what? That’s ok because ultimately we do what nourishes our soul and what makes us flourish. People will only ever understand you at the level they understand themselves. It’s taken me a long time to get to this place, this place of self belief, this place of knowing what I want and just going for it. My life of selflessly giving, being kind and generous continues but it continues in a more purposeful way, a way that better serves the spirit and essence of me and therefore serves everyone around me.

This past 10 days with my mum so sick has been very difficult, exhausting and of course worrying but throughout this time I have not stopped being positive. I have been a little emotional and those who know me well, know I am an emotional person but still I have had this inner strength and knowing, that everything will be ok and now I look for the good and positive to come out of every situation regardless of how hard, traumatic or sad that situation maybe. I love this new part of me and I literally feel the energy I am emitting and it feels bloody good. Maybe some people will think who does she think she is? And my response would be well it appears she is someone living and loving her life, unconcerned with who you think she is.

Many of my posts have spoken about authenticity and being unafraid to be your perfectly imperfect self. So many people remain forever trapped in a life they fell into, rather than the life they want and desire. They do a job they dislike. They often fill their voids with things, material things that they think will make them happy or happier and they may temporarily, but ultimately they don’t because things don’t make you happy. They stay in a relationship fearing what will happen if they leave. People don’t make you happy. Money doesn’t make you happy. YOU make you happy and everything else just compliments that. Once you have found your happiness within you, you feel fulfilled and you attract people and things into your life that add to that happiness. Now you are in that space where the magic happens and you know your purpose and are unafraid to go for it.

I left a 30 year relationship because I knew it wasn’t where I should be anymore. At some point your mind catches up with your heart and soul because they know what you want but your mind, forever using logic and anchored in old fears will always keep you somewhere far longer than you should be. It is not until your spirit overtakes your ego and you listen to your heart and soul that you move in the true direction you should go. Find those with your energy and let them inspire you and you inspire them. Be the type of person that makes other people want to up their game.

I read an article recently that said a good many of us marry before we have worked through our stuff, our unfinished business (childhood stuff, previous relationships etc) and that partner we choose, often when we are younger fills certain voids and obviously at that time our frequencies match. However, we grow, we evolve, many of us do the hard inner work and we transform and sadly our partner is no longer on our frequency and this is a big cause of relationship breakdowns. It’s hard and it’s sad but for your sake, your partners sake, for the sake of any children, you need to be and do what makes you flourish because this is the best outcome for everyone. My growth came when I realised that I do not have to experience life the way I have been told to or even the way everyone else does.

I have several new mottos in my life and a big one is I would rather be slapped with the truth, than kissed with a lie and I would rather hurt someone with the truth than make them feel happy with a lie, even if it’s an omittance to protect them. If I can’t be completely myself or I have to hide parts of myself from anyone for fear of their reaction or judgement then perhaps they aren’t meant to be in my life. I want to have people in my life that know the good and the bad because we are all human and we all have a story, the reality is do we have the right people in our life that want to read our book in its complete beautiful and ugly rawness? My purpose is to help others using what I have learnt on my journey and being completely unapologetically me.

So yes I woke up different. I woke up and reminded myself that my soul is bloody beautiful. My mind is incredibly powerful and my heart is made of gold. I woke up and started living my life, on my terms, focused on my goals and knowing this is how I become unstoppable. I woke up knowing that I will attract what I emit, so I will attract those on the same high frequency as me. I woke up thankful and grateful and appreciative of all that I have and all that is yet to come. I woke up knowing that the real glow up is internal.

I woke up knowing how very fortunate I am to have such amazing people in my life and also knowing that those people are also very fortunate to have me in their life. I woke up remembering that you need to always listen to your soul, quiet your mind and your soul will tell you where you truly want to be, follow your soul for it knows the way and if it doesn’t nourish your soul, let it go. What is meant for you will always find you, when your thoughts and feelings are in sync you will vibrate at the right frequency and the universe will do the rest. I woke up loving who I am and who I am becoming and knowing that I will continue to grow and thrive and that is honestly the most incredible feeling.