It’s been 5 weeks since I was retrenched from the place I had worked, for 35 years. 5 weeks of feeling so grateful that I was gifted with a financial package to leave a workplace, an environment, that had become increasingly toxic. With healing and enormous growth within myself over the past few years, I knew my future was to pursue my passions, and I now get to do that!
It’s been a busy time but also meaningful time, because I get to do the things I want and spend precious time with those most important to me.
I am literally glowing in gratitude.
Life has an interesting way of bringing you home to yourself. The universe will throw you those lessons and if you’re willing to see them and learn from them, the rewards are amazing. We spend so much of our time doing things that don’t particularly inspire us– especially if we work in an environment that goes against our values. We spend so much of our time trying to fit into the mould that other’s create for us- fearing the judgement or repercussions, if we decide to create our own mould. We spend so much of our time wearing masks and avoiding the truth of who we are- that we end up not living the life we truly desire.
Or we can step out of our comfort zone, face our fears head on and listen to the truth of our soul.
I’m so fortunate that I’m in that space. It’s taken me a long time to get here, but it’s a beautiful space. I’m blessed to have incredible people walking beside me and who have over the years picked me up off the floor, when I couldn’t pick myself up. An extended circle of friends but a core group of friends and family who I can trust implicitly– they’ve seen me at my happiest; they’ve seen me almost broken; they support me as I work hard on my next successes; they tell me when I’m being a d*ckhead; they know my f*ckups; they know my truth, in all it’s beauty and messiness. Authentic, honest and loyal friendship and connection is such a gift.
I have supportive parents and 2 remarkable kids that have seen me at my best and my worst and love me unconditionally. I can honestly say when we are our real and raw selves and we show our vulnerabilities, including our mistakes, our connections deepen. I’ve had superficial connections in the past, especially at work, where many are playing games and they are unfulfilling and disappointing. How do you have real connections, relationships and friendships, if you cannot even be honest with yourself? How can anything be real if you are too scared to follow your soul?
I thought I would miss the workplace and whilst I do miss some of the people and that regular interaction, I feel more inspired, relaxed, passionate and grounded since leaving. It’s important to have goals to work towards and a plan and I’m thankful, I had already been working towards mine over the past couple of years.
As I work towards the final pieces for my business and continue to write and spend time with those I care about, I also set off on an adventure in 6 weeks. A month of travelling to some places I’ve long wished to visit. I’m admittedly pretty excited! A little red wine in Tuscany, a little magic in Lake Como, a little history in Rome, a little heritage in Valletta, a little Moulin Rouge in Paris and a little paella in Spain. Most of all a whole lot of fun and gratitude to be able to experience such a trip.
Be grateful the small things as well as the big things. But do yourself a favour and understand who you really are. Not the you everyone expects you to be. Not the you who has been burying their emotions and feelings for years. Not the you who is constantly chasing something, anything to feel more fulfilled and happy. The messy you, the one that f*cks up. The you that has lost their way but shows up everyday as the person you think you are supposed to be.
When you come home to who you are really are, you will be forever deeply grateful.
When you are constantly chasing something to fulfil you, you lack the gratitude for what you have. When you are able to stand in your space with grace and gratitude, without the need for more and more, you finally understand true happiness. You finally understand life.
Find Your Inner Goddess 