I Want Something Just Like This

Another one of my popular pieces written for the Elephant Journal. It would seem most people want “something just like this”.

I want to be kissed softly on the forehead, just because.

I want to be washing the dishes mindlessly or brushing my teeth. Your arms wrap around me from behind. Warmly. Your face buried. Your lips grazing my neck.

I want to be busy doing something, focused on the task at hand. I look up. See you with that look in your eye, you know the one..the one that says I’ll devour you.

I want to be in the car singing really badly because I do actually sing really badly, when you take my hand in yours.

I want to be talking animatedly, rambling even and maybe you aren’t really listening but you pretend that you are.

I want you to hold my precious heart. Delicately. Affectionately. With all the care and love you have.

I want you to know that I will hold your precious heart. Delicately. Affectionately. With all the care and love that I have.

I want to be challenged! Challenge me on my thoughts. We’ll challenge each other and animatedly debate our ideas.

I want to argue. Good relationships aren’t passive, they are emotive. I want there to be fire because that shows we fight for what is important to us.

I want to make up after arguing. I want great communication and super hot make-up sex.

I want us to support each others dreams, whatever they may be. Individual dreams and shared dreams.

I want you to be vulnerable. Tell me your darkest secrets. Your happiest moments. Tell me what scares you. What excites you. Tell me what you want. What you desire. I want to know everything. Laugh. Cry. Let me hold you. Let me be there for you.

I want to cook for you. I want you to appreciate my efforts, even though I’m a mediocre cook at best.

I want to grow with you. I want us to grow individually. Grow together and we will transform.

I want you to have interests of your own. I want to have interests of my own. I want to have shared interests. Two people with interesting and full lives independently and together.

I want you to be passionate. Passionate about life. Passionate about your dreams and goals. Passionate about what’s important to you. Passionate about me. Passionate about us.

I want to sneak into the shower and wrap my arms around you when you have shampoo all through your hair and in your eyes.

I want you to be adventurous. Adventurous to try new things. Go to new places.

I want to lay in the bath with you talking about life. Reading. Staring into each others eyes in silence. Simply being.

I want you to understand I am both a mother and a woman. My children no matter their age are my gifts and I will always be there for them. As I will understand you may have your own gifts.

I want you to respect me. Respect my independence. Respect my boundaries. Respect that I will love you hard.

I want a chemistry and energy that defies logic. A connection so strong it just is.

I want you to love all my flaws and imperfections because there are plenty. I want you to look at my wobbly bits and say “f*ck you’re sexy”.

I want to work together. Financially. Physically. Spiritually. I want to be equal. Always supportive.

I want you to be whole. Happy with yourself. Loving yourself. Then we compliment each others life. We want and desire. We do not need.

I want you to touch me. Play with my hair. Tickle my back. Rub my legs. Slap my ass. I want to touch you. Massage you. Touch you in that way that drives you wild.

I want to play. Have fun. Laugh. Be sarcastic. Tease each other as only those who share intimacy can.

I want you to love nature as much as I do. To feel the ocean in your soul. To be enchanted by sunrises and sunsets. To be grateful of the beauty that surrounds us each and every day.

I want you to be proud of me. Proud of who I am and what I have achieved because I will be so f*cking proud of you.

I want you to me motivated. Motivated to fulfil your goals. Motivated to grow with me. Motivated to fight for what you believe in.

I want you to own your sh*t and call me on mine. We all make mistakes. Admitting to them openly and genuinely apologising is how we move forward. Forever speaking our truth.

I want to lay with my head on your chest, in silence. Both of us caught up in our own thoughts. Communicating without the need for words. I want to hear your heartbeat. Feel the inhale and exhale of your breath.

I want to learn from you. I want you to learn from me. I want us to forever be on a journey of learning. Evolving.

I want you to be kind and caring by nature, as I am. Generous with your time and always willing to give to others.

I want you to think I’m a Goddess. See me as your Queen because you will be my King.

I want to share life. I want to share love. I want to share experiences and magic moments. Moments we will carry with us forever.

I want us to live every f*cking day with purpose. As if it’s our last. Inspire each other. Drive each other a little crazy. Laugh at each other and ourselves. Rock each others world. Rock each others minds. Rock each others spirit. Rock each others bodies.

I want something just like this.

Published by Michelle

After a long marriage, 2 children (now grown), a separation and embarking on a brand new life, I have realised life is always a journey. I have made mistakes, I have hurt and been hurt, I have loved and I have lost and at times I completely lost myself and forgot the Queen that I am. As women we are the nurturer, the caregiver but sometimes we underestimate the Goddess within us and my journey has made me realise that when our crown is crooked, we need to adjust it ourselves and remember the Queens that we are! This will be a blog about what I have learnt, what I am continuing to learn and how we can help each other. I will talk about all things love and life and at times this will be controversial but life and love is never black and white but varying shades of grey. We live in a judgemental society and so many of us live our lives according to the expectations of others, rather than doing or being what truly makes us happy. I hope you join me on my journey and on my quest to find that Inner Goddess and we can learn from each other and we can discuss the judgements and societal expectations that hold so many of us back. It's time to seek our inner happiness!!

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